i have been vacillating between being ridiculously, amazingly, exquisitely content, and feeling like my life is spiraling out of control. basically, entropy and eris have been kicking my ass lately, and i'm not sure how to fix it. but the show went spectacularly, and i'm pretty thrilled that it's over: it was a beautiful, powerful experience, and it was sucking up my whole life. that's probably why i've been so scattered, actually, which would be more comforting if i was feeling significantly less scattered now that it's over.